Four years ago, I attend a Women of Faith conference and saw a skit about the many hats that moms wear. While this isn't the same exact sketch, it contains many of the same undertones:
Like the video above, I currently wear many hats and as a result I often feel I live a fragmented and contradictory life. Sometimes, the hats that I wear stand in direct opposition to one another. The part of the video that resonated with me the most was the transition from the wicked witch to the nun. Oh, that is the way that I feel sometimes.
I have been struggling to find a way to make all my hats fit on my head in a way that they do not interfere with one another. But often times, by the end of the day, trying to do this leaves me defeated and confused. Some of my roles I can really excel at while on the same exact day in the other roles I am a complete flop. I haven't found a way to make these inconsistencies within my own self mesh together; to be 10 different things to 10 different people and in the end make everyone happy, including myself. However, God's gentle Spirit has been undermining my goal of making all my hats fit and to find the ability to smoothly transition from one to the other. Instead, He has challenged me to stop and start over from a whole different perspective.
I am currently reading through the book Living with Contradiction by Esther de Waal. I am in the midst of working through the chapter, Learning to Live with Myself and it is really ministering to my heart. For the next 3 posts, I want to look more closely at what I've been learning from Him as I work through these ideas. I pray that the things that I am learning will also minister to your heart.
Image: Sunlight in Antarctica. Photograph. Encyclopædia Britannica ImageQuest. Web. 20 Mar 2015.