*Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
*Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
*Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
*Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
*Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
*Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
*Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.
*Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of God.
When I look back through the front half of these verses I see vulnerability, pain, fear, emptiness, boldness, courage and bravery; in essence I see humanity displayed.
* Poor in spirit
*Hunger and thirsting
*Mercy and compassion
*Pure in heart (vulnerability)
*Peacemakers (those who go into hard and difficult places to pave a way for peace)
*Persecution for choosing the right way
These are the attitudes that Jesus calls blessed. These are the empty, human places in all of our hearts that make space for God. The second half of these verses show that it is in these empty places that God is going to come in and fill. But what is not answered for us in these verses is the how and the when. Just that it is.
As I've ministered to individuals over the last 9 years I've found many sitting at the front end of these verses: those poor in spirit from traumatic pain in their past. Those mourning because of lost dreams whether spiritual, emotional or relational. Those hunger and thirsting for a deeper reality of God. Those showing mercy over and over to loved ones and only left feeling hurt by the brunt of rejection. And do you know how they often feel spiritually in these moments? The answer is not "blessed." The answer often is shame, fear, guilt and doubt. They feel shame that they do not have enough "faith", guilt that their lack of faith has caused these situations to take place. Frustration that they have a nagging need in their heart for more of God and that they haven't found "satisfaction." But according to Jesus, these are not the emotions people have to feel during these seasons, they should instead feel "blessed"?
What exactly is meant by "blessed?" Is it a feeling? Is it an emotion? As I stop to step back and look at it I don't think it is either. Rather, I see it as a protective truth, that people should be able to tuck their minds into when they are in the midst of the first part of these truths. Because the journey from part 1 of the verses to part 2 can take time and it can be painful and the only way to make it to the other side is by trusting God's heart. But sadly, what has often been taught to people living in the midst of the first half is that God is disappointed in them, or He wants them to get their act together and so in their very deepest moment of need they end up turning to themselves to try and fix themselves instead of to God to receive the blessed truth of His healing grace in their deepest time of need.
I can give you one example from my own life. When my niece, Nevaeh died - I "held it together" for a half year. I knew that she was in heaven and because of that fact, I had "learned" that it wasn't really right for Christians to mourn. The result of trying to ignore my humanity was that it began to reek havoc in my life. I became filled with fear, anxiety and depression. It was a struggle to get out of bed every morning and I was in constant fear about my children. Through a series of events God began to chip away at my religious walls and as I result I began to mourn. I mourned deeply and I cried out in frustration, fear and pain. It didn't happen all at once. It happened over a couple of years (and in fact continues to happen), but in each key moment when God put His finger on my heart, I have allowed myself to truly mourn. And do you know what I received? Not a pep talk of," Just get your act together." Not rejection. Not a lecture from God that I shouldn't question Him or have doubts or fear. No, what I received was true, lasting, life-giving, healing comfort.
Beloved, what I see when I look at Jesus, is God breaking through all the barriers, the misconceptions, the lies, the separation that kept us from understanding and accessing His heart and I see Him coming in taking on our humanity and showing us that God is able to meet us in our humanity. What I don't see is Jesus showing us that humanity is a cinch and if you just try hard enough you will never experience pain. Jesus wept before Lazurus' tomb, Jesus sweated blood before the cross, Jesus cried out on the cross, "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?" Jesus was not afraid to wear the fullness of humanity: the agony, the doubt, the fear, the loneliness, the rejection and at times the blindness to the hand of God. Why? Because He knew that there was a second half to it: the place where God meets us and fills in our emptiness:
*theirs is the kingdom of heaven
*they will be comforted
*they will inherit the earth
*they shall obtain mercy
*they shall see God
*they shall be called the children of God
*great is their reward in heaven
There is a place of tension between part 1 and part 2. And that is where Jesus steps in and gives us His grace,the enabling power of God. So if you find yourself in the midst of part 1 of these verses I encourage you to hunker into the blessed protection of God. He is not disappointed in you, He is not waiting for you to get your act together, He is not ashamed of you rather He says, "I've walked this way before you, I will now walk beside you and yes, I will even walk behind you (Psalm 139:5)." Fear tells you that if you open yourself up like this - to being real and not holding yourself together - you will fall flat on your face and perhaps find out that in fact God isn't real. But Jesus, says no, if you open yourself up in this way, you will find God and that He is big enough to meet you in your deepest, darkest places of agony and fear.
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